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We Who Feel Differently
 is a database documentary that addresses critical issues of contemporary queer culture.  

Interviews features conversations with fifty queer academicians, activists, artists, radicals, researchers, and others in Colombia, Norway, South Korea and the United States about the histories and development of LGBTIQQ politics in those countries. 

Themes outlines five thematic threads drawn from the interviews in the form of a narrative. This section has also been produced as a book.

Journal is a sporadic publication that presents in depth analyses and critiques of LGBTIQQ politics from queer perspectives. The first issue was “Queerly Yours: Thoughts and Afterthoughts on Marriage Equality” (edited by Carlos Motta), the second issue was “Disastrous Inclusion: Critical Reflections on the Legacy of DADT” (guest edited by Ryan Conrad) and the third and current issue is “Time is Not A Line: Conversations, Essays, and Images about HIV/AIDS Now” (guest edited by Ted Kerr).

Ephemera presents documentation of temporary physical exhibitions and events held in different cities- social platforms to discuss queer politics locally. 

Credits and Support

We Who Feel Differently is dedicated to all those heroic queers out there who make the world more interesting and beautiful 


A project by Carlos Motta

Web Design: Tangrama Gráfica

Web Programming: Thomas Hines

Book Editors: Carlos Motta and Cristina Motta

Book Publisher: CTRL+Z Publishing

Transcription of Interviews: Aerin Cho (Korean), Juan Carlos Posada (Spanish) and Kay Saida (English).

Editing of Interviews in Original Language: Carlos Motta, Pedro Lama and Raegan Truax-O'Gorman (English), Jiwon Lee (Korean) and Cristina Motta (Spanish).

Translation of Interviews: Cora Sueldo (Spanish-English) and Jiwon Lee (Korean-English).

Copy Editing: Cora Sueldo (Book)

Video Editing of Interviews:  Moo Kwon Han (South Korea) and Carlos Motta (Other countries)

Financial Support




Very Special Thanks to Arne Skaug Olsen from Visningsrommet USF and CTRL+Z Publishing for commissioning this project, his trust and support.

Warm thanks to the following people for their invaluable help, support, advise, assistance and company:

Bogotá, Colombia: Marina Bernal, Daniel Bonilla, Franklin Gil Hernández, María Mercedes Gómez, Humberto Junca, Arturo Motta, Alexandra Posada, and all the interviewees. 

Bergen and Olso, Norway: Birger Angvik, Agnes Bolsø, Paal Bjørby, Hanne Børke-Fykse, Yamile Calderón, Espen Evjenth, Flaggfabrikken, Pedro Gómez-Egaña, Randi Gressgård, Kristinn Hegna, Tone Hellesund, Siri Lindstad, Åse Løvgren, Dag Stenvoll, Lars Rune Waage and all the interviewees.

Seoul, South Korea: Minsuk Cho, Melissa Choi, Doryun Chong, Heng-Gil Han, Hyunjung Jin, Eungie Joo, Heejin Kim, Hyunjin Kim, Yoosuk Kim, Siren Jung, Ovar, Ziihiion Zenn, and all the interviewees.

United States: Ryan Conrad, Kathleen Gilrain (Smack Mellon), Josh Lubin-Levy, Camila Motta, Addison Smith, Raegan Truax-O'Gorman, and all the interviewees.

Elsewhere: Hongwei Bao, Irit Batsry, Gustav Hofer, Cristina Motta, Carmen Torres, David van der Leer and Other Gallery, Shanghai.

Artist's Bio

Carlos Motta is a multi-disciplinary artist whose work draws upon political history in an attempt to create counter narratives that recognize the inclusion of suppressed histories, communities, and identities.

Motta’s work has been presented internationally in venues such as Tate Modern, London; The New Museum, The Guggenheim Museum and MoMA/PS1 Contemporary Art Center, New York; Institute of Contemporary Art, Philadelphia; Museo de Arte del Banco de la República, Bogotá; Serralves Museum, Porto; National Museum of Contemporary Art, Athens; CCS Bard Hessel Museum of Art, Annandale-on-Hudson; San Francisco Art Institute and Hebbel am Ufer, Berlin.

Motta is a graduate of the Whitney Independent Study Program, he was named a Guggenheim Foundation Fellow in 2008 and received grants from Art Matters in 2008, NYSCA in 2010 and the Creative Capital Foundation in 2012. He is part of the faculty at Parsons The New School of Design, The School of Visual Arts, Milton Avery Graduate School of the Arts at Bard College, the International Center of Photography and The Vermont College of Fine Arts.

www.carlosmotta.com * www.la-buena-vida.info


WE WHO FEEL DIFFERENTLY / Illustrations by Humberto Junca

"We Siren" (based on an illustration of La lotería mexicana)
"Our Music" (based on a photograph at the Schwules Museum in Berlin)
"Our Fuck" (based on an illustration by Tom of Finland)
"Our Tradition" (partially based on a found photograph of a Chinese eunuch)
"Our Rage" (based on an illustration of La lotería mexicana)
"We Angel" (based on the cover of the magazine Gay Power by Alan Daugherty)
"We Androgyne" (based on a found photograph)
"Our Lust" (based on a photograph of a photograph of a French S&M performance)
"Our Hand" (based on an illustration of La lotería mexicana)
"Our World" (based on an illustration of La lotería mexicana)
"Our Liberation" (partially based on a figured of the Socialist mural by Max Linger on the Leipziger Strasse in Berlin)

Illustrated by Humberto Junca

Queer Bibliography

This space is intended to be a growing public resource of queer bibliography: It lists well known and not so well known titles and authors. It has been built from recommendations by many people I have reached out to, thank you! If you would like to add new titles to this list please e-mail me at: mottacarlos(at)yahoo(dot)com

Abelolove, Henry
Deep Gossip 

ACT UP NY (Women AIDS Book Group)
Women, AIDS, and Activism 

Against Equality
Against Equality: Queer Critiques of Gay Marriage
Against Equality: Don't Ask To Fight Their Wars

Ahmed, Sara
Queer Phenomenology: Orientations, Objects, Others
The Promise of Happiness

Althus-Reid, Marcella
Indecent Theology: Theological Perversions in Sex, Gender and Politics

Allyson, Dorothy
Skin: Talking About Sex, Class And Literature
Two or Three Things I Know for Sure 

Arenas, Reinaldo
Before Night Falls
The Doorman

Bagemihl, Bruce
Biological Exuberance: Animal Homosexuality and Natural Diversity

Baldwin, James
Another Country
Giovanni's Room
Go Tell It on the Mountain
If Beale Street Could Talk
Just Above My Head
Notes of a Native Son 

Barnes, Djuna

Beauvoir de, Simone
The Second Sex

Bechdel, Alison
Fun Home: A Family Tragicomic

Bernstein Sycamore, Mattilda
Nobody Passes: Rejecting the Rules of Gender and Conformity
So Many Ways to Sleep Badly
That's Revolting!: Queer Strategies for Resisting Assimilation
Why Are Faggots So Afraid of Faggots?: Flaming Challenges to Masculinity, Objectification, and the Desire to Conform

Bersani, Leo
Is the Rectum a Grave?: and Other Essays
The Freudian Body

Bergman, S. Bear
Butch is a Noun 

Bey, Hakim
Black Fez Manifesto
T.A.Z. the Temporary Autonomous Zone, Ontological Anarchy, Poetic Terrorism

Bond, Justin Vivian

Bordowitz, Gregg
General Idea: Imagevirus (The AIDS Project) 
The AIDS Crisis Is Ridiculous and Other Writings, 1986-2003 

Bornstein, Kate
Gender Outlaw: On Men, Women and the Rest of Us
Gender Outlaws: The Next Generation (edited with S. Bear Bergman)

Boswell, John 
Christianity, Social Tolerance, and Homosexuality: Gay People in Western Europe from the Beginning of the Christian Era to the Fourteenth Century
Same-Sex Unions in Premodern Europe

Brett, Philip; Wood, Elizabeth; Gary C.Thomas
Queering the Pitch: The New Gay and Lesbian Musicology

Bright Susie
Big Sex Little Death
X: The Erotic Treasury

Brown, Rebecca
The Gifts of the Body 
The Haunted House
The Terrible Girls

Browning, Frank
The Culture of Desire: Paradox and Perversity in Gay Lives Today

Burg, Barry R.
Sodomy and the Pirate Tradition: English Sea Rovers in the Seventeenth-Century Caribbean 

Burroughs, William S. 
Naked Lunch
The Wild Boys: A Book of the Dead 

Butler, Judith
Antigone's Claim
Bodies That Matter: On the Discursive Limits of Sex
Excitable Speech: A Politics of the Performative
Gender Trouble: Feminism and the Subversion of Identity
Undoing Gender Subjects of Desire
The Psychic Life of Power: Theories in Subjection 

Califia, Pat
Macho Sluts
Public Sex: The Culture of Radical Sex
Sex Changes: The Politics of Transgenderism
Speaking Sex to Power: The Politics of Queer Sex 

Callen, Michael
Surviving AIDS

Cárdenas, Micha
Trans Desire

Carter, Angela
The Passion of New Eve

Cheng, Patrick S.
Radical Love: An Introduction to Queer Theology

Chin, Staceyann
The Other Side of Paradise

La Guerre des pédés

Cooper, Denis
The Sluts

Coyote, Ivan E. and Sharman, Zena
Persistence: All Ways Butch and Femme

Crimp, Douglas
AIDS: Cultural Analysis/Cultural Activism
AIDS Demo Graphics  (edited with Adam Rolston)
Melancholia and Moralism: Essays on AIDS and Queer Politics

Crisp, Quentin
How to Have a Life-Style
Manners from Heaven
The Wit and Wisdom of Quentin Crisp

Cruikshank, Margareth
The Gay and Lesbian Liberation Movement

Danbolt, Mathias, Rowley, Jane, and Wolthers, Louise
Lost and Found: Queerying the Archive

Dangerous Bedfellows
Policing Public Sex: Queer Politics and the Future of AIDS Activism

Dean, Tim
Beyond Sexuality
Homosexuality and Psychoanalysis (edited with Christopher Lane)
Unlimited Intimacy: Reflections on the Subculture of Barebacking

Deitcher, David
Dear Friends: American Photographs of Men Together, 1840-1918 
The Question of Equality: Lesbian and Gay Politics in America Since Stonewall (edited with Armistead Maupin)

D’Emilio, John
Intimate Matters: A History of Sexuality in America 
Making Trouble: Essays on Gay History, Politics, and the University
Sexual Politics, Sexual Communities

Delany, Samuel R. 
Times Square Red, Times Square Blue

De Lauretis, Theresa
Alice Doesn't: Feminism, Semiotics, Cinema
Technologies of Gender: Essays on Theory, Film, and Fiction 
The Practice of Love: Lesbian Sexuality and Perverse Desire

Dickinson, Emily 
Poems, Three Series, Complete

Domurat Dreger, Alice
Hermaphrodites and the Invention of Sex 

Doty, Alexander
Making Things Perfectly Queer

Duggan, Lisa
The Twilight of Equality?: Neoliberalism, Cultural Politics, and the Attack on Democracy

Duncan, Robert
“The Homosexual in Society” (First published in August 1944 in Politics 1:7)

Eugenides, Jeffrey
The Virgin Suicides

Faas, Ekbert
Young Robert Duncan: Portrait of the Poet As Homosexual in Society

Fausto-Sterling, Anne
Sexing the Body

Feinberg, Leslie
Stone Butch Blues
Transgender Warriors

Fone, Byrne
Homophobia: A History

Fornssler, Barbara
Affective Cyborgs

Fraser, John and Heimlich Joe E., eds.
"Where is Queer?," 
Museums & Social Issues: A Journal of Reflective Discourse, vol. 3, no. 1, Spring 2008.

Foucault, Michel
Herculine Barbin (Being the Recently Discovered Memoirs of a Nineteenth Century French Hermaphrodite)
The History of Sexuality

Freud, Sigmund
Dora: An Analysis of a Case of Hysteria
Three Essays on the Theory of Sexuality

Genet, Jean
Miracle of the Rose
Our Lady of the Flowers 
Prisoner of Love 
The Thief's Journal

Gerassi, John
The Boys From Boise: Furor, Vice and Folly in an American City

Gide, André
The Counterfeiters 

Goffman, Erving
Stigma: Notes on the Management of Spoiled Identity

Goldberg, Susan and Brushwood Rose, Cholë
And Baby Makes More

Gómez-Arcos, Agustin
The Carnivorous Lamb

Gunn, Thom
The Man with Night Sweats

Hacker, Marilyn
Squares and Courtyards

Halberstam, Judith
Female Masculinity
In a Queer Time and Place: Transgender Bodies, Subcultural Lives
The Queer Art of Failure

Halperin, David
Gay Shame
Saint Foucault: Towards a Gay Hagiography 

Hammond, Harmony
Lesbian Art in America: A Contemporary History

Haslett, Adam
You Are Not a Stranger Here: Stories

Hawkins, Peter S.
‘Naming Names: The art of memory and the NAMES Project AIDS Quilt’, in Greenberg, Reesa, Ferguson, Bruce W. and Nairne, Sandy. eds., 
Thinking about Exhibitions (London & New York: Routledge, 1996), pp. 133-156.

Heger, Heinz
Men with the Pink Triangle

Herdt, Gilbert (Ed.)
Third Sex / Third Gender: Beyond Sexual Dimorphism in Culture and History

Hillman, Thea
Intersex (for lack of a better word)

Holleran, Andrew
Chronicle of a Plague, Revisited: AIDS and Its Aftermath
Dancer from the Dance

Hooks, Bell
Teaching to Transgress: Education as the Practice of Freedom
Communion: The Female Search for Love
Feminism Is for Everybody: Passionate Politics 
Outlaw Culture: Resisting Representations
Teaching to Transgress: Education as the Practice of Freedom
The Will to Change: Men, Masculinity, and Love
Yearning: Race, Gender, and Cultural Politics 

Holmes, Morgan
Critical Intersex
Intersex: A perilous difference

Humphreys, Laud
Tearoom Trade: Impersonal Sex in Public Places

Jacobsen, Mary
Blood Sisters: A Novel of an Epic Friendship

Jarman, Derek
At Your Own Risk

Kessler, Suzanne J.
Lessons from the Intersexed

Kreouac, Jack
Desolation Angels
On the Road

Koestenbaum, Wayne and Kushner, Tony
The Queen's Throat: Opera, Homosexuality, and the Mystery of Desire

Kugle, Scott
Homosexuality in Islam: Islamic Reflection on Gay, Lesbian, and Transgender Muslims 

Kureishi, Hanif
The Black Album
The Buddha of Suburbia

Kushner, Tony
Angels in America

LTTR (www.lttr.org)

Laud, Humphreys
Tearoom Trade: Impersonal Sex in Public Places

Levin, Amy K.
Gender, Sexuality, and Museums 

Levin, Lauren
Same Sex in the City: (So Your Prince Charming Is Really a Cinderella)

Lorde, Audre
Our Dead Behind Us
Sister Outsider: Essays and Speeches (Edited with Cheryl Clarke)
The Black UnicornThe Cancer Journals 
The Collected Poems of Audre Lorde
The Marvelous Arithmetics of Distance
Zami: A New Spelling of My Name

Lorde, Catherine 
The Summer of Her Baldness: A Cancer Improvisation

Love, Heather
Feeling Backward

Lubin-Levy, Joshua and Motta, Carlos
Petite Mort: Recollections of a Queer Public

Luibhéid, Eithne and Cantú, Lionel Jr.
Queer Migrations: Sexuality, U.S. Citizenship, and Border Crossings

Kramer, Larry
The Tragedy of Today's Gays

Markson, David 
Wittgenstein's Mistress

McCaskell, Tim
Race to Equity: Disrupting Educational Inequality

McNeill, John J.
Taking a Chance on God

Mendelsohn, Daniel
The Elusive Embrace: Desire and the Riddle of Identity 

Meyer, Richard
Outlaw Representation: Censorship and Homosexuality in Twentieth-Century American Art 

Miller, Tim
1001 Beds: Performances, Essays, and Travels 

Mishima, Yukio 
Confessions of a Mask

Moore, Patrick
Beyond Shame: Reclaiming the Abandoned History of Radical Gay Sexuality 

Muñoz, José Esteban
Cruising Utopia: The Then and There of Queer Futurity
Disidentifications: Queers Of Color And The Performance Of Politics

Murray, Raymond
Images in the Dark: An Encyclopedia of Gay and Lesbian Film and Video 

Myles, Eileen
Chelsea Girls
Not Me
The Importance of Being Iceland
The New Fuck You: Adventures in Lesbian Reading

Nanda, Serena
The Hijras of India: Neither Man Nor Woman
Gender Diversity: Crosscultural Variations

Nestle, Joan

A Restricted Country

Nimmons, David
The Soul Beneath the Skin

O’Hara, Frank
Lunch Poems
"Un Chant D'Amour" first appeared in Fuck You, a magazine of the Arts. 

Pasolini, Pier Paolo

Povinelli, Elizabeth
The Empire of Love: Toward a Theory of Intimacy, Genealogy, and Carnality

Preciado, Beatriz
Manifeste contra-sexuel Pornotopia
Testo yonqui

Preves, Sharon E.
Intersex and Identity: The Contested Self

Proust, Marcel
Remembrance of Things Past

Purdy, James 
In a Shallow Grave

Quiroga, José
Mapa Callejero: Crónicas sobre lo gay desde América Latina

Queen, Carol A.
Exhibitionism for the Shy: Show Off, Dress Up and Talk Hot!
Five-Minute Erotica
Leather Daddy and the Femme
PoMoSexuals: Challenging Assumptions About Gender and Sexuality (edited with Lawrence Schimel and Kate Bornstein)

Rendell, Jane; Penner, Barbara; and Borden, Iain 
Gender Space Architecture: An interdisciplinary introduction 

Ricco, John Paul
The Logic of the Lure

Rich, Adrienne
What is Found There
A Wild Patience Has Taken Me This Far
Blood, Bread, and Poetry
Diving Into The Wreck: Poems
Fox Of Woman Born: Motherhood as Experience and Institution The Dream of a Common Language
The Fact of a Doorframe

Roughgarden, Joan
Evolution's Rainbow

Rubin, Gayle
Deviations—A Gayle Rubin Reader that includes:
"The Traffic in Women: Notes on the 'Political Economy' of Sex"
"Thinking Sex"
"The Catacombs: A temple of the butthole"
"The Leather Menace"
"The Miracle Mile: South of Market and Gay Male Leather in San Francisco 1962- 1996"

Russel, Ina
Jeb and Dash: A Diary of Gay Life 1918-1945

Russo, Vito
The Celluloid Closet: Homosexuality in the Movies

Sáez, Javier and Carrascosa, Sejo
Por el culo: políticas anales

Sandell, Richard
Museums, Prejudice and the Reframing of Difference

Sanders, Joel
Stud: Architectures of Masculinity
Sears, Alan and Osten, Craig
The Homosexual Agenda: Exposing the Principal Threat to Religious Freedom Today 

Schneebaum, Tobias  
Keep the River on Your Right 
Where the Spirits Dwell: An Odyssey in the Jungle of New Guinea

Schulman, Sarah
My American History
The Gentrification of the Mind
Ties That Bind

Sedgwick, Eve K.
Between Men: English Literature and Male Homosocial Desire
Epistemology of the Closet
Novel Gazing
Tendencies Touching Feeling: Affect, Pedagogy, Performativity

Shepard, Benjamin and Smithsimon, Greg
The Beach Beneath the Streets: Contesting New York City's Public Spaces

Silverman, Kaja
Flesh of My Flesh
Male Subjectivity at the Margins
The Threshold of the Visible World

Spade, Dean
Normal Life: Administrative Violence, Critical Trans Politics, and the Limits of Law

Spring, Justin
Secret Historian: The Life and Times of Samuel Steward, Professor, Tatoo Artist and Sexual Renegade

Stanley, Eric A.
and Smith, Nat
Captive Genders: Trans Embodiment and the Prison Industrial Complex

Stein, Gertrude

Autobiography of Alice B. Toklas
Tender Buttons

Stephens, Nathalie
The Sorrow And The Fast Of It

Stryker, Susan
Transgender History

Tin, Louis-Georges
The Dictionary of Homophobia: A Global History of Gay & Lesbian Experience

Torr, Diane and Stephen Bottoms
Sex, Drag, and Male Roles: Investigating Gender as Performance

Tucker, Scott
The Queer Question: Essays on Desire and Democracy

Vidal, Gore

Vidarte, Paco
Etica marica

David Wojnarowicz 
Close to the Knives: A Memoir of DisintegrationIn the Shadow of the American Dream: The Diaries of David Wojnarowicz
Memories That Smell Like Gasoline
Seven Miles a Second
The Waterfront Journals
Tongues Of Flame

Warner, Michael
Fear Of A Queer Planet: Queer Politics and Social Theory
Publics and Counterpublics
The Trouble with Normal: Sex, Politics, and the Ethics of Queer Life 

Watney, Simon
Policing Desire
Practices of Freedom: Selected Writings on HIV/AIDS

Weinberg, Thomas S.
S&M Studies in Dominance & Submission

Wilde, Oscar
The Picture of Dorian Gray

Wilson, Lamborn Peter
Pirate Utopias  

Winterson, Jeanette
The Passion  Written on the Body 

Whitaker, Rick
Assuming the Position: A Memoir of Hustling  

White, Edmund
A Boy's Own Story: A Novel 
City Boy: My Life in New York During the 1960s and '70s
Genet: A Biography
Marcel Proust: A Life 
Rimbaud: The Double Life of a Rebel 
The Farewell Symphony
The Flaneur: A Stroll Through the Paradoxes of Paris

Whitman, Walt
Leaves of Grass 

Woolf, Virginia